40 weeks today

(started wrting this post on 17th Dec...only managed to finish it today, in between the breastfeeding, burping, pumping and diaper changes)

17 December 2012. The date that my baby was scheduled to come out.

Yes, we were pregnant! (past tense, baby AO is already out at 38 weeks). After 40 weeks, now is the only free time I have to blog about my pregnancy!

Lets see what I remember...

The test

Me and hubs started trying for a baby in January this year...we decided that after 6 months, we might be ready to be pregnant and have a kid (emphasis on "might" ... if we wait until we are "sure", might be a while until we try :p).

So, we bought a fertility stick which apparently works to tell you your 2 most fertile days to conceive naturally. Didn't know this thing exists, go to know about it from a friend. We never used it. Hahah. It's still in tact in my dresser drawer...maybe I can give it to one of the many to be-newly weds next year as a present :)

So, I was late in April. And had a really bad fever, MC from office for 2 days...people say demam mengandung...So I decided to take the test on the 19th of April. I had a pregnancy stick lying around. Kakmira bought me 2 sticks some weeks ago when I was late in March. So this was my second time taking the test since we started trying. I took the test in the afternoon, and it was positive! I could not wait to tell everyone, but I thought Aliff should know first, and I didn't want to do it over the phone, so I had to wait for him to come back from work...and that night he came back really late...it was so agonizing for me to keep this from ibu and my sisters! I was already asleep when he came home, but I woke up because of the lights that he had turned on...I didn't really plan on how to break the news...I had the stick next to my bed and just showed it to him...His face lit up and he hugged me and instantaneously I saw him taking out his phone to text everybody! I told him, other than our immediate family, we should not tell anyone first until we confirm with the doctor...but Aliff was too excited to hold it in, he practically told everyone the news the next morning. Just to double confirm before we went to see the OB-GYN, Kakmira, our in-house bidan (she is our point of reference for any pregnancy-baby related issues cause she already has 3 babies and she knows a lot of stuff), told us to take another test using Clear Blue Digital which apparently is most accurate. The next day, Aliff picked me up from my office at lunch time, got me the test from Ampang Park and sent me back to office. I went straight to the toilet and peed on the stick and few minutes later the words "Pregnant" appeared. The test also indicated that I was 3 weeks pregnant.

We set an appointment and met the wonderful Dr Siti at SDMC on 30 April 2012 and confirmed that  this cute little thing was growing in my belly:

During the first check up, Dr Siti informed us about the test for down-syndrome. I was freaked out when she asked whether we want to take the test, and so was Aliff, he was like "Did you see anything wrong doctor?". Hahha... But Dr Siti explained it's the normal protocol to ask patients to take the test, because if we decide to terminate the pregnancy, we have to do it within the first 5 weeks. But she assured us that she didn't see anything out of the ordinary, and that the possibility was very slim given my age. Ofcourse afterwards we consulted our in-house bidan, Kakmira, and she said its normal to take the test, she took it for 2 of her babies. So we took the test and if we didn't get a call within 2 weeks from the test, there is nothing to be worried about. The 2 weeks was so agonising for both of us, though we didn't express it out loud, trying to be positive. When the 2 weeks came by and we didn't get any call from Dr Siti, we relaxed a little. Alhamdulillah, at the next check up, Dr Siti said everything was ok.

First Trimester

• No appetite to eat AT ALL. The only thing I could eat was beef - fried, nothing fancy. Even then I could only stomach a few bites. I can't even look at chicken without feeling nauseated. At one point I was crying in front of the food because everything didn't suit my stomach.
• HATES the smell of cigarette smoke and alcohol.
• Lost 800 grams 
• Dr Siti started me on acid folic.
• First craving was laksa penang. Ibu cooked for me. Then Aliff brought me to Subang Parade and I had one bowl at the Penang restaurant there (can't remember the name of the restaurant).Also craved for tempoyak ikan patin. My sweet aunt from Seremban cooked a bowl for me :) (other than these 2 dishes, I didn't crave for a lot of weird things throughout my pregnancy).
• I experienced bad headaches and nausea - I was lucky I did not experience terrible morning sickness. I think throughout my pregnancy, i vomitted less than 10 times, and most of the time it was because of tooth-brushing.
• Me and hubs took an imromptu-short holiday at the YTL Pangkor Laut Resort. Will try to blog about this later if I can find the time. Short review: One of the best places to go to for a relaxing holiday. Beautiful beach, EXCELLENT spa experience, tip-top customer service-seriously the best I've ever experienced, you are addressed by your name, anything you want, you get and even the cleaners will greet you.
• Still wearing 3 - 4 inch heels and was constantly being told to switch to flats by my colleagues and boss. 

Can barely see the belly yet...at this point people probably think that i'm just fat

First day at Pangkor Laut

A closer look at the growing tummy

By the Emerald Beach

Second Trimester

• Got my appetite back. But I overdosed on beef that I had to lay it off for a while. Can start eating chicken back, yay!
• Plain water is like HEAVEN on earth! Nikmatnyaaaa minum air! One of my favorite things to do when being pregnant is gulping a glass of plain water.
• My smell senses got really sensitive - there was one day when I was talking to Aliff i the car and suddenly I smelled oranges...Aliff then told me he drank the tropicana orange juice that morning.
• Started my love affair with Pizza. I can eat pizza all day everyday. If you asked me what i want to eat, my only answer will be pizza.
• Also started my closer relationship with the toilet - had to pee everytime i gulp water. I think I went to the loo about 20 times a day.
• Started experiencing butt-ache. Yep, butt, left cheek. If i sit or lay down for more than 10 minutes, I will experience the most painful ache when I try to get up. Sleeping is a nightmare. This was one of the most irritating and painful part of the pregnancy for me.
• Belly started showing, but I had a relatively small belly.
• Gained about 3kgs.
• Dr Siti started me on sangobion to up my iron.Was also taking calcium and neuro gain.
• Work did not slow down, but I try to be home by 8 or 9 pm so I don't have dinner too late.
• Fasting month came - and alhamdulillah, I fasted for the whole 30 days without much problem - PROVIDED I wake up for sahur everyday, which I did.
• Started feeling really SLEEPY during the day, especially between 3-4 pm. Started having afternoon naps, and I never nap during the day! There was once at the office, in my room, I decided to lie down to rest my head after praying zohor. It was around 2.30pm. When I woke up, it was 4pm, and I was still in my telekung! Luckily my boss wasn't looking for me!
• Started buying baby stuff (will try writing about this later).
• Felt baby kicking for the first time, at 5 months of pregnancy, on the eve of my birthday! One of the most happiest moments in my life.
• Got to know that we will are cooking up a beautiful baby girl at 5 months into the pregnancy. I kind of already know it was going to be a girl, since the first 2 attempts to detect the sex was unsuccessful...they say if it's a boy, you'll know as soon as 4 months.
• Switched to 2 inch heels.

Lulu's Pink and Purple 4th Birthday Celebration

Hari Raya at Kampung

   

Baby Naurah's aqiqah and cukur jambul

Third Trimester

• Started wearing kitten heels and flats to the delight of my colleagues and bosses.
• Could not fit into pants anymore. My attire to work was maxi-stretchable dresses only.
• Still in love with pizza.
• Butt-ache still persisting and getting worse. 
• Started experiencing many other aches from all over the body.
• Can't lie straight on my back.
• Complaining about the aches more and more.
• Sleepy all day. Started having naps in the office under the table.
• Had pregnancy hemmorhoids. Doctor said nothing to worry about, just apply the cream. It will not affect natural birth.
• Started car-pooling to office with Aliff because I got too tired to face the KL traffic and my belly was getting too big for the steering wheel.
• Found it harder to wake up early in the morning for work. 
• Ibu and my sisters organised a lenggang perut and baby shower for me on 7th October.
• My baby nanny/maid arrived safely on the day of my baby shower. What a relief! One of the best baby shower presents for me and baby!
• Went to have a detailed scan of baby at about 28 weeks of pregnancy. Best to do it within the 20th-26th week, to be able to see the baby clearly because baby has not grown too big to crowd the space and liquid is adequate to be able to see the fetal parts. The aim of a deatiled scan is to look at baby's anatomy in detail and see if there any abnormalities. Dr Siti said it will only show superficial results (which means the surface of the baby, not the organs). We did it at UMRA hospital at Shah Alam. It was open after office hours, which was convenient for me and hubs, and it was much cheaper than the SDMC clinic, which was only open during office hours. We saw baby kicking me in the belly! Sooooo adorable! Everything looked normal and perfect. Alhamdulillah.
• Syida's engagement (will write about this later - wahhh so ambitious of me to write so many posts after this...this post alone took me about a week to finish!)
• Kakmira gave birth to baby SH and I just can't wait for my baby to come out! I remembered Kakmira was breastfeeding baby SH one day and I was moaning because of my body aches, and Kakmira looked at me and said to me, while showing at my belly "that is easier than this (showing at her new-born)". I didn't believe her...how wrong was i? hahaha
• Felt baby hicupping in my belly at about 30 weeks of pregnancy. How do I know it was hiccups? You just know...it's not the normal movements of the baby...you'll know when you feel it. This is what I got from google- "Keep in mind that when your fetus is hiccupping there is nothing wrong. You dont need to call your doctor or midwife, unless you feel something else is going on, and you dont need to freak out. Simply relax and enjoy feeling your baby move inside you. Hiccuping is a sign that your baby's central nervous system is well-developed and that he is readying himself for life outside the womb." 
• Gained another 4kgs and lost about 600grams at the last check up, which made it a total of about 8-9 kgs throughout my pregnancy. I didnt gain much weight, people always tell me I'm too thin for a pregnant woman, and that I don't look pregnant from the back or from neck up...hahah. But baby gained weight at every check up. Dr Siti said my baby was growing fast and was at 3.1kg at the last check up which was at 38 weeks.
• Went to our first baby exhibition at mid-valley, which turned out to be my last outing before baby came out (labor story on a seperate post).
• Last craving was for cekodok...but didn't get to have it...will write about this in my labor story.

Syida's engagement

My Baby Shower

One of the last pregnant pictures of both of us...Kakmira popped the next day

I never thought I would say this, but I miss pregnancy! I miss my belly. I miss not having the need to hide the extra layer of fat in the belly, I miss strangers coming up randomly to ask me about my baby,  I miss the perks and privileges of pregnancy - people being extra nice and cautious of you, getting to cut lines, coming in late to work without the need to come up with excuses etc.

Next: My Labor Story. 

My last pregnant picture. This was taken around 10am, in the labor room at SDMC, in between contractions :)

Till then, toodles.

Syida's Merisik

Ok, it's been too long. With this new place, i really can't find time to write. Boo.

Anyway,

Last month we had Syida's merisik! Ibu went all out and it was just short of a few tents to make it seem like an engagement..."last girl" she said. And the bride-to-be tak nak kalah. She bbm-ed me the day before and told me I had to make centerpieces for the tables. Yes, I made centerpieces for my merisik as well, but coming from Syida, it was a big deal...it's signs of a "zilla" coming to the end of the word "bride".

So, we had it on a Saturday afternoon. I had dinner plans the night before so I could only make the centerpieces the morning of. First thing I uttered after brushing my teeth that morning was "Kak Huriah, bawak keluar pasu-pasu kahwin saya" followed by "Where are the flowers?"

Ibu came back with purple, pink and white roses, chrysantemums, daisies and orchids.

Started with my duty for the day - centerpieces and also flowers for where she will be seating when her future MIL will be putting on the ring. Had my little-volunteer-helper Lulu with me, someone for me to pass on my love of flowers.

Syida was made up by kakmira. Catering was Manisa Catering and my nikah caterer (a relative, don't know their business name). Her beautiful ensemble was by non other than our beloved Cindy. Photos were by Han, me and Nell.

Everything went perfect and beautiful.

Here are some pictures.

Project!

Woohooo...so dates are semi-confirmed for Syida's wedding! Well they've set the month, but dates are still being tossed around,  but whatever it is, there will be a merisik and bertunang this year, and wedding next year...that means the wedding planning can officially start!

I am currently quite occupied with office work, starting at a new place, in a new area would require me to put in extra hours to solidify my presence and build trust with the boss...so, I am still in the phase of trying to prove my worthiness, and although my biggest critic is me, and I am constantly dissapointing myself, I will not let that get in the way of getting back into the bridezilla me! Though I don't think it has ever left me..:)

Syida is more focused on the designs of the dresses right now. But I think, we need to take one thing at a time, and focus on the merisik first, which I was told by the bride-to-be will be in March. So right now I have to come up with a design for Syida's merisik baju kurung...OMG, lagi mengada kan? Merisik pun nak kena ada design?

Anyway, Ibu is panicking looking for a place to have the reception. That would depend on whether they will have the large number of guests like mine or are they willing to cut down on the guest list - which I don't think will happen, so we will need to find a big hall again. Dewan Sri Endon where I had mine is in the list, there were no problems with them when I had mine there, and it's a really nice hall. But Syida wants to try and look at other options as well...so the parents need to decide on the size of the wedding ASAP so we can get the hall hunting started.

Right now, I think the color schemes has been agreed on and the themes semi-confirmed.  As far as vendors are concerned, from my wedding experience, I know now who to AVOID, and who to BOOK immediately. I have a few vendors in mind that I would love to take again. But, it will depend on Syida, although I have been given a "power of attorney" to make pretty much all the decisions...well actually in Syida's words - "You do everything, all I want are a few options and power to veto". So bossy right.

Anyway, i'm so E.X.C.I.T.E.D. Can you tell?

As Cher and Dee in Clueless (like one of the best movie ever) would say, "PROJECT!".

Toodle doo.

Our Wedding Song

I miss my wedding. It's been 7 months...shouldn't the post-wedding blues be over by now?

I'm such a loser, I know. Bluerghhhhh.

Waiting for Syida to finalise her dates to get me excited again. Actually, I find that planning for the house is also a good substitute. Maybe I should write about that?

DISCLAIMER: My post wedding blues has nothing to do with my married life. I'm falling in love with my husband everyday ever since (minus some reality bites ofcourse). I'm just a wedding fan, that's just me.

KARMA

Would like to share an incident that happened to me one fine day.

Definitely an eye and and also heart opener.

One morning, I was RUSHing to work (I am always rushing because I let the snooze button take over my life). Took my usual route - NPE towards KL. Reached the toll area and sped to the touch n go lane. An old mercedes was infront of me. In it, were two old couple - I know they were old because I can see from their rear windscreen. The husband (I assume) who was the driver, was struggling to find their touch n go card. I could see the both of them rummaging through the front of the car trying to locate the card.

They were taking too long. I was antsy. I almost honked at them, but I didn't, because they were elderly, and I was afraid I'll shock their already weak hearts...or did I? If I did it was just a soft honk. Then, these words came out of my mouth -

"old people should not leave home too early in the morning when people are rushing to work"

God. How awful did I sound, right? But I meant it in a good way, in that, they should spend early mornings in bed, or jogging/brisk walking or taichi or whatever. Because the road is just not a nice place during rush hour. But, I know, however good my intentions were when I uttered those words, it was still VERY unpleasant of me.

FINALLY, they found the touch n go card and swiped it at the card reader, and off they went. So it was finally my turn, touch n go card ready in my hand, screen already down, and I swiped my card on the reader before the barrier that opened up for the old couple went down completely. Usually, that would not have been a problem, people do it all the time, swiping their cards before the barrier went down completely, especially in smart tag lanes. The barrier would just bounce back up.

So, I swiped my card, and heard a soft and short "beep", but it wasn't the usual "beep" that you'll hear once your card is validated. The barrier didn't bounce up back as it would usually, instead it went down completely, and the prompter said "SELAMAT DATANG". HUH? I thought probably I didn't swipe it rightly. By that time, my car has already passed the reader, because once I swiped the card I didn't wait for the barrier to bounce up, thinking that it would, like always. So, I had to reverse my car so I can swipe again. 

There was a car behind me and as I was reversing, the guy in the car behind honked at me! WTF. "Sabar la wey" I said. Then I swiped my card again. The prompter then said "KAD TIDAK SAH". Double WTF!

I am pretty sure my card still has balance, and it would have said "BAKI TIDAK CUKUP". Instead it said "KAD TIDAK SAH". Of course by then a few cars had lined up behind me. Some impatient cars started honking. Then a toll-staff came and said, I had to pay cash. Paid her RM1.60. She swiped her card and the barrier came up. Off I went, still confused on why my card was invalid.

I was not satisfied, so at the next toll, I went to the cash-lane, but, opted to try the touch n go reader that it also had (some toll operators have t n g readers at their cash lanes), just to confirm whether there is actually something wrong with the card. If it was still invalid, I could just pay cash and not cause a que like I would if I am trying my luck at the touch n go lane, right? So, I swiped my card at the reader, and guess what? It was FINE. The barrier came up as usual. Nothing was wrong with my card. And the whole day and days after that, my card was perfectly fine, even at the same toll which declared it invalid that fateful morning.

It got me thinking. Was it KARMA? 

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"Keredhaan Allah bergantung kepada keredhaan ibu bapa dan kemurkaan Allah bergantung kepada kemurkaan ibu bapa"

"Dan Tuhanmu telah memerintahkan supaya kamu jangan menyembah melainkan kepada-Nya dan hendaklah kamu berbuat baik pada ibubapamu dengan sebaik-baiknya. Jika salah seorang di antara keduanya atau kedua-duanya sampai berumur lanjut dalam pemeliharaanmu, maka sekali-kali janganlah kamu mengatakan kepada keduanya perkataan "ah" dan janganlah kamu membentak mereka dan ucapkanlah kepada mereka perkataan yang mulia."

p/s: I guess this applies to other people's parents as well. Treat the elders nicely. They are precious human beings. Don't be selfish and impatient. Sabar separuh daripada iman.

Aliff, tolong kemas katil...

Saturday morning -

Aliff: Nadiah, we have to go to Wawa's for Ain's merisik.

Me: Ok, I mandi skarang.

Aliff: I pergi bank jap, after that I pick you up and we go to Wawa's ok.

Me: Ok. Tolong kemas katil boleh? So I can mandi and siap terus.

Aliff: Ok.

(Note: I have given him a tutorial on how I make my bed a couple of months after the wedding)

Got out of the shower, and found this:

Hmmm.....needs a little bit of retouching....

This is how it is supposed to look like:

Well, I guess I can give him 'A' for effort.

Happy Weekend!

Toodles.

Clicking The Refresh Button.

Hello December!

I have not been blogging as frequent as I have been during my pre and post wedding hoop-la...

Reason: I don't have any specific topic to write about. As anyone who knows me can imagine, weddings have a special place in my heart, and thus I can write on and on and on about it, and it doesn't have to be about my own wedding.

Now that that is over, you can click the refresh button as many times, and you'll still get the 2 blog entries in November. Hahah. So, let me give you something to read.

I have a few minutes to spare before I rush off to Parliament. Yes, after 2 and a half years here, this is my first to Parliament (of which I'm not really excited about, because I'll be flying solo, as always - it doesn't really bother me anymore for the things I'm familiar with, but given this is my first time, and given it's the House of Senate, I'm pretty nerve-wrecked)...

Despite the nerves and little bit of anger for being abandoned, it is also with sadness, as it might be my last...as of 2nd December 2011, I FINALLY tendered the letter that I have drafted and saved in my personal folder since 2 years ago.

So, back to writing, this year have been filled with wedding and engagement invitations, and they are really special because most of them are those close and dear to me. All very lovely events, each beautiful in their own special way. I plan to write about them soon, while I finish the balance of my leave. This year is also doubly special because some of my close friends (a couple of them newly weds) are baking in their ovens, three of which were my bridesmaids, and two of them had actually popped up precious tiny humans.

As I approach the end of this year, I look back and realised sooooooooooooo many things has happened, bad and good, a couple "finally" events and some "it could never happen to me" events. Have I fulfilled my 2011 resolutions? Or do I have to drag it to the 2012 list? Some things may need reviewing and some may be struck off. But few mandatory items on my agenda next year are......syida's engagement, raed's first birthday party, our long-postponed-honeymoon, and......jeng jeng jeng....let that last one be my little secret :)

Ok. so time is up, got to make the necessary preparations....and looking at the shelf, I get headaches, need to prepare a schedule to finish the backlog of contracts before I leave. Leave. bittersweet. bittersweet. So much more to write. Will continue soon.

Toodles.

CHANGE

Change is good.

Change is inevitable.

Change is scary.

What is certain is I AM going to make the change. It IS time.

Just hoping that the decision I am about to make will be a good one.

I am hoping that the grass IS greener on the other side.

Tragedi Oktober

Is it November already?

Thank God.

October was a BAD month.

It started out really nice ... didn't expect the turn of events that would befall upon me.

But I am very thankful. Thankful to still be alive and healthy as I am writing this.

This was my October 2011:

1. First Week

I was actually looking forward to a friend's wedding that weekend, a former colleague and karcis-partner when I was chambering in Albar & Partners. It was at Mandarin Oriental, KL. It was spectacularly beautiful and the Bride was exceptionally gorgeous. Didn't bring my camera, but I managed to snap a picture of the beautiful pelamin.



@ Dalilah's Wedding

The next weekend was my nephew's kenduri aqiqah. I helped with decorating the buaian for the berendoi. The theme was blue and gray. Since it was for a boy, my Kakmira wanted the decorations to be simple.

my favorite kids

2. Second Week

Me and hubster went to Jakarta over the weekend to attend his former colleague's wedding. Our flight was the first flight out, at 7.30am, so we planned to wake up at 4am, so we can head to the airport at 5am, reach the airport at 6am, and have at least 1 hour to spare for checking in and breakfast and stuff. But somehow I snoozed the alarm, and woke up at 5am!!!! We got ready in 15 mins and reached the airport around 6.30am...quickly checked in and by time we went to the departure gate people were already lining up to board the plane. Just in time. Nasib baik I ordered breakfast on the plane!

Reached Jakarta at 8am and made our way to the hotel. Had breakfast again before checking in the hotel (was still hungry although I finished Aliff's nasi lemak on the plane). We had bakso at a shop nearby the hotel. Quite nice.By noon we made our way to the church for the church ceremony. We had some bumps along the way, cab driver got lost, the car broke down for a couple of minutes, but we managed to reach the church. It was heavily and beautifully decorated with flowers. Bride was in a Vera Wang *so lucky*. They served us Starbucks for refreshments after the ceremony...Nice.Later at night, we had a light dinner at Grand Indonesia and went to the Reception which was held at Shangri La. Again, beautifully decorated and it was more laid back, finger foods and drinks at your pleasure. Something different for a change. It was a beautiful wedding.The next day we went to Pasar Mayestik to get materials and fabrics that Bapak and Ibu had pesan. Later we went to Plaza Indonesia for lunch and by 4pm we headed to the airport for our flight home, which was the last flight out at 8.30pm. Reached Malaysia at about 11.30pm and reached home close to 1am. The next day was Monday, and I didn't take leave.


**no pictures because I can't seem to find the camera...sigh**

3. Third Week

It was Monday, just got back from Jakarta. Went to work, because I didn't want to waste my leave. BUT I was sooooooooooo TIRED. The weekend in Jakarta was hectic and I have not had enough sleep. Didn't get much sleep the night before either because we reached home close to 1am and I think I probably finally dozed off at about 2am. At the office I could not concentrate as I was sleepy and just tired. I watched the clock so closely that as it hit 5pm, I rushed out of the office, on the dot. I don't usually leave office that early but was realllly tired and could not wait to go home and jump on the bed.

So, that fateful day, I was driving through NPE to get home, and the next minute;

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The car hit the divider, and the next thing I remember, I was holding on to the steering wheel trying to keep the car straight. I remembered the screaming in my head "Oh My God, Oh My God" and "How can I fix this?" and "Oh My God, Oh My God" again. But I was helpless...The car was out of control...It felt like you're in one of those bumper cars and the car is just moving out control hitting and spinning.

The car finally screeched to a halt. And that was the time I was fully aware of what was happening and all I can think to do is grab my bag and get out of the car. Luckily the seat belt didn't get stuck. Luckily the door didn't get stuck. I was pushing off the airbag out of my face. I realised I was ok, no major injuries...just a tiny scratch at the wrist and my nose hurt a little. As I pushed open the car door, a man came to me and helped me out. The first thing I asked him was did I hit any other car? did I hit anyone?

 I was LUCKY.

I was lucky I was wearing a seatbelt.
I was lucky my car had airbags.
I was lucky I did not collided with any other vehicles.
I was lucky I did not hit any other person.
I was lucky I was OK.

I caused a major congestion, 18th October 2011, 6pm at NPE. Yes, if you were stuck that day, it was because of me and I apologise deeply.

Aliff came and rescued me from the sea of "pomen" who were pushing me to get their services. What a NIGHTMARE! Aliff brought me to the Emergency Room at SJMC and got me checked out. No major injuries. Doctor gave me one day medical leave. I still don't use the NPE since the accident. I'm without a car for atleast 2-3 months...so right now I'm borrowing Adri's car until I sort out some other arrangements, whatever that will be.

4. Fourth Week

It was a public holiday, for Deepavali...about a week after the accident. Didn't get a good sleep that night. Struggled to sleep the whole night, and when I was finally able to go into the deep sleep, Aliff woke me up and asked me to join him for a morning run at Lake View. It was 8am. On a holiday. Kakmira and Adri was already outside in the car waiting for us. Urghhhhhhhh. I hate exercising. But I dragged my ass off the bed, put on my running shoes and followed them to Lake View. Walked for 1 round, and ran for another round. Dead Tired. We then went to have breakfast.

I don't know why, but we were all very semangat to look at houses that day. We went to Alam Impian to look at the progress of our house (yeah, me and hubster bought a house!). According to the schedule, it should be completed early 2013.


that's our future house on the right!

Then we drove to Kinrara to look at Kinrara Residence. Me and Aliff have been there once and their show houses were really nice. Adri was interested in this property and wanted to show it to Kakmira, who swore she does not want to move out of Subang. Anyway, we spent quite a long time there looking at the show houses and talking to the sales person there. Kakmira and Adri were quite excited to get it, but not sure whether they are going through with it. Anyway, it was almost noon and I was begging to go home because the sore from the jog has finally crept up on me. By the time we got home i was beat! Couldn't move at all. But, since we had not have our lunch, me and hubs went to Subang Parade for a late lunch. I ate caesar's salad at this new place Capriciossa.

Went home and did not feel good. My legs were aching more than usual. I was having spinning headaches and my body temp was going up. At around 4am, I woke up and threw up my salad. But, I chose to go to work the next morning because I had a meeting that I had to attend, although everyone asked me to stay home, mostly because the accident was still fresh in everyone's mind.

But by now I have become a really careful and patient driver..So, I was adamant that I was OK and that I'll go straight to the clinic after the meeting. I wore my flat pumps because I could not walk well...and I NEVER wear flats to work! But when I reached the office, I was not feeling OK, at all. I could not walk. I was nauseated, my head was pounding. The people at the office asked me to go home but I was too sick to drive. So I slept in an empty office room. Then I started vomitting. Everyone thought I was PREGNANT. I was VERY SURE I WAS NOT. I asked my colleague to drive me to a nearby clinic. The doctor said I was probably having a viral fever. Sounds right, Adri just got well from a viral fever and he had been sleeping on my bed when he was sick. Doctor gave me one day MC and when I felt I was ok to drive back, I went home and slept the whole night.

The next morning I woke up to go to work, but was suddenly having diarrhea. So I stayed home. Ate bread for breakfast and threw it all up. Went to the clinic again. This time I was no longer having the fever. Doctor said probably a stomach flu. Gave me meds and one day MC. Went home and got something to eat so I can eat my meds. But I couldn't get anything in my stomache. Anything I eat, I'll throw it all back out. It got to a point that I can't even drink. I was MISERABLE and HUNGRY.

At about 2.00am the next morning, I woke up and starting vomitting again. Aliff brought me to the Emergency Room at SJMC. Doctor gave me a shot and some more meds. Went back home. It was Saturday, 29th October 2011 and probably one of the WORST day of my life!

My tounge was bitter. I could not eat. I could not drink. The smell of food made me want to throw up. I was forced to eat but my body just can't accept anything. I was running out of ideas of what to eat. My body was not well. I was crying infront of my food.

By this time I have ruled out pregnancy. I took the pregnancy test (my FIRST time ever!) and it was negative. Soon after, my period came. So, definitely NOT pregnant. So, Aliff brought me to SJMC again, and this time doctor said it was probably best that I get admitted, as this is the fourth visit to the doctor's...he said I'll be put on drips as my body is not receiving the nutrients it needed. The doctor said my stomach was full of wind. He even said that my stomach was not functioning. That is why I could not stomach anything.

Was admitted that night. My darling angel of a husband slept next to me. But I can feel myself feeling better. I think the drips helped, or probably just psychology cause I'm in the hospital and just met with a specialist. Its always like that..when you see the doctor, somehow the pain is suddenly not as bad. Anyway, doctor gave me some meds and I went to sleep.

No short of bad luck, I was having stomach cramps from the period. But it wasn't that bad, thank goodness.

Next morning I was feeling MUCH MUCH MUCH better. I was FINALLY able to eat and drink, tho not much. Doctor came in again and said I can be discharged that afternoon. He diagnosed me with diarhea and food poisoning I think. I think it was a combination of the tiredness, the fever and probably some wrong food.


a happy face the next morning :)

Anyway, I was so excited to be able to eat again. Me and Aliff went to have lunch at Hassan's at Taipan, and ate the famous ayam kampung...but I stayed off the sambal and anything "stimulating" as the doctor advised.

My mother called and said when i get home there's a surprise for me in my room.

I have the best mother.

BUT,

That's not the end of it.

I was suddenly having rashes all over my body. It was red and itchy and uncomfortable. WHAT NOW? Allergic to meds? Anything wrong I ate? Arghhhhh. Went back to the Emergency Room at SJMC for the third time that week. Doctor gave me a shot and observed me until it got better. Went home with more meds and one day MC. Next morning I was hungry and made myself bread. I was looking for butter, but we ran out, so I made myself a peanut butter and jam sandwich. Next thing I know, i was itching really bad again. SHIT. What the hell is wrong? I have never been allergic to nuts. Went to the clinic and doctor said I may be allergic to some meds, and he said allergy reactions can continue for 4-5 days and that I should stay away from any allergens such as dairy, nuts, chicken etc.

FINE.

Next day went to work and ate chicken for lunch. I FORGOT chicken was on the list! And itching began again. Didn't go to the doctor's this time. I rubbed on the itchy cream the the doctor gave and just continue to eat the meds. The rashes went away.

As of today, I am still watching what I eat and will test for allergies soon.

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Despite all that has happened to me last month,

I am ever so thankful to Allah that I am still breathing and is of good health today. 

I am thankful that all the worst possible "What if-s" did not happen.

And for that I feel that He had saved my life the day of the accident.

I accept all his trials and I believe that

"Tuhan tidak akan menguji hambanya melebihi kemampuannya".  

Although what I have been through is not half of what others

out there in this world are going through,

I hope I am a stronger person after this.

Thank you Allah for sending me my angels;

my husband, my mother, my sisters, my father, my family

for caring for this weak and helpless being.

Love.

..... and Hello November!